I was told yesterday by a close friend, that looking at all of my multi-talents; my beauty and my smarts, and everything else nice, I should be a mega-bitch. But I didn’t realize that if you are talented, you are required to be a bitch at the same time. So I am not a bitch. I try to be nice. I like it when people are nice to me, and I like it when I am nice to people. I like it when people like me, and I like people who like me.
There is this dream that I get occasionally when the weather gets especially snowy, where I dream of trees, long, wavy, green trees, with long leaves, that are just beautiful to me. I dream about a place which is really green and leafy, so green that it hurts your mind to see so much beauty. I was in a place such as this a few days ago, it is called Hawaii. It is beautiful as beautiful as I dreamed it would be.
I have a bucket list of sorts, I have a list of all the places that I want to see, and on that list are all the places in the world, except those places that I have already been to. I dont want to go to the same place twice, until I have gone through all of them once, and then I can go through them again. In this bucket list, is my dream to open my own business as well. Which is on hold, until I can figure out what kind of business I should open.
I fear that I am the kind of person who wants to open a business, but falters with indecision due to overload of information, or too much information seeking. I am the person who has done so much research on a subject, that they essentially are subject-matter experts, which causes them to conclude, that its a bad idea to do whatever they were researching. Too much information is usually not a good thing. But in business, it is especially a bad thing, if you are going to wait until you have all the information before beginning a business, you are going to be waiting a long time.
I think about Social Media PR as something that would be interesting to dip my feet in, but that would be in the far future, when I have learnt enough about my current business. Who knows what the future holds for me, but I am excited all the same to see it through?
Surrounded by great friends and family, I am a success already in my mind, Success to me is happiness. If you are not happy, you are not a success. Maybe that is a really shallow definition of things, but still there it is. That is what I believe.
One thing I have noticed about myself, that I have had other girls notice as well, is that they are incessantly attached to the relationship and they give their all to it, thinking nothing about the other people who existed in their lives before the inauguration of the relationship. That is something that I guess you learn through time, but I have had this comment from girls who are in their late twenties, or early thirties. Is it something that comes with 20-30 years of dating, or does it never come to the estrogen-filled female? This is something I want to talk about more, and think about more.
By the way, I had a comment on my blog on Guys not berating themselves after a breakup from a guy who had been there. He informed me that he had lost 50 pounds after a girl broke up with him, to prove to the world, that he was still attractive. I guess, the self esteem downfall after a breakup affects the best of us. And the worst of us.
Ciao!
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